Apricot

I am walking across a field.

I am walking across a field eating a sweet summer apricot.

I am walking across a field eating a sweet summer apricot thinking about my life and wondering what to do with it.

I am walking across a field eating a sweet summer apricot thinking about my life and wondering what to do with it and contemplating changes like maybe losing weight and getting a proper job.

I am walking across a field eating a sweet summer apricot thinking about my life and wondering what to do with it and contemplating changes like maybe losing weight and getting a proper job and finding a new therapist and learning printmaking.

I am walking across a field eating a sweet summer apricot thinking about my life and wondering what to do with it and contemplating changes like maybe losing weight and getting a proper job and finding a new therapist and learning printmaking and giving up dairy products.

I am walking across a field eating a sweet summer apricot thinking about my life and wondering what to do with it and contemplating changes like maybe losing weight and getting a proper job and finding a new therapist and learning printmaking and giving up dairy products and going to live in the country.

I am walking across a field eating a sweet summer apricot thinking about my life and wondering what to do with it and contemplating changes like maybe losing weight and getting a proper job and finding a new therapist and learning printmaking and giving up dairy products and going to live in the country and learning the names of all the birds.

I am walking across a field eating a sweet summer apricot thinking about my life and wondering what to do with it and contemplating changes like maybe losing weight and getting a proper job and finding a new therapist and learning printmaking and giving up dairy products and going to live in the country and learning the names of all the birds and rereading all the French feminists, when I decide it might be easier not to bother with any of it.

I am walking across a field eating a sweet summer apricot.

– from Still Life with Teapot by Brigid Lowry (Fremantle Press, 2016, $35.00) available at Unity Books in Willis Street and in Wellington Library. Reproduced with the author’s permission; photo by Steve Harvey on Unsplash.

A long-time Buddhist practitioner, Brigid Lowry was one of the founding trustees of Aotearoa Buddhist Education Trust; she now lives in Perth, Western Australia.